Neha Kakkar Curated
Indian Playback Singer
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How do you feel about the negative comments people writing about you? Does it effects you?
Of course, I am a human being and I do feel bad about it, but after feeling bad I bounce back. I feel these people who are writing bad (things) about me are nothing but jealous people. They feel, ‘why is Neha here?' Jo number one singer hai uske hi baare main likhengay log. So, I understand that -- I am number one that is why people talk about me and get jealous.
Your break up with Himansh Kohli has been talk of the town. Your personal life has also become quite public. Any comments on that?
I am a very emotional person. Whatever happened in my personal life in the last few months was very unhappy. I regret the fact that I made my personal life so public. It is during the bad times that you realise that people can be so negative towards you and that shocked me. Himansh did nothing to deserve all that (flak). He was nothing like that at all. Still he received so much hatred and negative comments on social media. I won't make the same mistake again. I will not make my personal life public.
What would you like to say about the wedding rumors with Aditya Narayan?
Aditya is a very beautiful person. He has a heart of gold and I am really happy to share that my dear friend is getting married this year with his long-time girlfriend. I wish him all the happiness and many years of togetherness.
Are you open to love now?
Yes, but right now my entire focus is on work. There are interesting projects that I will start working on this year. There are two films and two music videos, and I am really looking forward to them.
Have you been in touch post the break-up?
No, we have had no contact after we split.
The fact that she has been very emotional about you on social media or even on her reality show Indian Idol, where she cried when your name came up, do you think she wanted to patch up with you?
I don’t know… I was never available for that. I kept myself away from everything once we parted ways.
So how did you deal with that phase?
I took a holiday and went to London, my sister joined me there. I was constantly in the news because each time she posted something, I would be trolled. I felt like I was in everyone’s bad books and was even losing confidence to talk to women. I went to places where I could meditate. One thing that really hurt me was people accusing me of using her; I just couldn’t understand that. Four films of mine had released before I met her and I was making money. In fact, while the two of us were together, I didn’t do much work because I would travel with her for her shows, so that we could spend time together. I actually let a lot of work pass in those months. People also said that I had cheated on her and that’s why things ended. Thankfully, a few months later, she cleared the air and said I hadn’t cheated on her. Thereafter things got better. I have put it all behind me now. In fact, it has made me stronger and I guess people respect me even more today and tell me that they appreciate the way I handled it all. I have always respected my relationship while it was on or even after it ended. I haven’t deleted any of the things that I put up on social media while we were dating because I believe that two people may move on in life, but they don’t necessarily have to erase good memories.
What was the reason behind the split?
There were so many things that happened, but I didn’t want to talk about it. All I can say is that she didn’t want to continue and so, we mutually decided to separate. It was her decision to move on in life and I respected that. But then in no time, the story took a turn. Each time she put up a post, I faced a backlash.
Why was the break-up so ugly?
Neha had put up a post in those days saying, ‘Mujhe pata nahi tha iss duniya mein itne burey log bhi hote hain.. Khair... I know I’m a celeb..I’m not supposed to write all this.. but I’m human too.. and aaj kuch zyada hi toot gayi, isliye couldn’t control my feelings.’ It wasn’t an ugly break-up from my side, but when speculations began, everything became ugly. That was one of the worst phases of my life. Today, things have settled down, but yes, there was a time when the entire world was cursing me on social media. That was when we had just split towards the end of 2018 and she had put up this post online. Nobody wanted to know the real story and I was made out to be the villain. It was very upsetting because I wasn’t saying anything and people were drawing their own conclusions based on what she was putting out. She cried on TV shows and everyone believed that I was to blame. I wanted to cry, too, but then we tend to put up a brave front. At the end of the day though, we are human. Mann mera bhi bahut karta tha ki main kuch kahoon, there were times when I would type things to post on social media, but I would decide to wait for some time, and a few hours later, I would change my mind because I felt this is the same person who I had loved, how can I say anything against her. That’s not my definition of love. I never even asked her why she was doing that to me, even though it hurt me very much.
Would you agree that your personal life has been far more in the news than your work?
Yes. In fact, a lot of people, including the media, even today call me Neha Kakkar’s ex-boyfriend. I understand that; I have been in a relationship with the person, and it’s normal for everyone to link me with her. But sometimes, I feel bad because there is an identity that I made for myself in 2011 when I started out as an actor with the TV show, 'Humse Hai Life'. Her hit song 'Aaj Blue Hai Pani Pani' was from my film 'Yaariyaan', which released in 2014. Of course, the two of us met much later... somewhere around 2017 during the promotions of my film 'Ranchi Diaries', where she sang one of the songs. We clicked really well and started going out, and were together for almost a year. I was serious about the relationship and we had plans to get married at some point in the future.
What are your feelings about your struggles and rise to fame?
It feels great. I always tell people that I am still living in a dream. How can this happen? A small-town girl from Rishikesh went to Delhi and then Bombay. It (the journey) has been good. Never thought about where I have reached today. It feels amazing and I think even now I have to make it even bigger in life. I started singing at the age four and till 16 I was only doing bhajan sandhyas (religious songs). If you see my Jagran footage, I used to sort of party there, too. I would dance and sing bhajan's as a little kid and people used to… paagal ho jaate the (go crazy). I have been partying since then.